We shall always try to remind ourselves, by the end of the day, by the end of our lives, what matters the most after all
I am writing this down mainly as a reminder to myself, also to those who have been busy in life:
- I know I should, but I just don’t have the luxury time for Yoga or meditation, for myself
- I know I didn’t spend enough time with families and friends, but I really have to catch up this deadline
- I know what I am doing is not sustainable. When this is finished, things will be smoother and better
Two days ago on an early Saturday morning, I was waking up by massive pain on my right shoulder: I couldn’t turn without feeling like killing myself. My partner tried to help me to get out of bed, even that caused me so much pain, that I couldn’t stop tears from filling my eyes.
The day before this happened, I had a short chat with a fellow practitioner. I told her, I knew I should take care of my back as it has been stiff for quite some time. I just didn’t want to waste the precious time to do Yoga. It is such a luxury to have 1.5 hours for Yoga.
What have I been busy with:
- Preparing for some exams and trying to catch up deadlines
- Dealing with things in life in general
The signs I knew prior the last Saturday:
- Always tired. Partially because of our young son, but mainly from my schedules
- Unfinished projects. There are lots of things I would like to do, but I have been keeping on postponing it, for instance, I want to update this website
- Signals from my own body. I have been having a tired back, stiff shoulders, and I no longer feel the connection with my own body
- Hot temper, very easy to get mad
With the support of my partner (who went for a walk with the little one), I did Yoga Saturday at around lunch time: the first 30 minutes, I managed the postures to 15% extent, max. When I finished my first Yoga for a long time, I was happily showing to my partner that I could slowly move my neck without too much pain again. We baked Christmas cookies.
I did Yoga on Sunday, and I could feel my back again. Of course, both days I didn’t lay a finger on my study books.
There are things in life we shouldn’t postpone, as there are things for life we cannot afford to postpone.